8 My Doctor

Today I was at my family doctor, and I must say I got a reality check, big time. He told me that : You know this is not going away. You are going to live with this. But it is going to get better, but it is going to take a lot of time. And in a few years you are going to look back at this time and see that you are moving forward.
But you shouldn't have to much hope in medication or different procedures out there, because a lot of them won't  help you.

I think he was refreshingly honest with me, most doctor walk around the bush to much. Yes the stone cold truth can hurt, but it can also build you up, and when you know what to fight against, its easier to pull up you're sleeves and go get you're life back.
This is a lot of big words, and right now I am so sad that I feel that the system is giving me up, so I am going to cry this weekend, and call every doctor I can think of, on Monday. I am going to nag my way back to get the help I know I deserve.

0 Wednesday

Today I am having one of to many bad days. Not fun when everything hurts like hell.
When I drink lemonade it feels like I am swallowing a cow.
But yesterday I bought a book about living with a chronic disease.. I am looking forward to reading it.
I am hoping that it will give me some basic points on how to deal with my illnesses
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