0 loneliness

This Norwegian article ( you can get it translated in Google.com), shows that more than 500 people dies over the holidays, than it does in September, the same year
           http://www.vg.no/helse/artikkel.php?artid=10012691
This shows how important it is to have family and friends around you. we all need a good social network.

Source: SSB Norway

I know, because I am so much sick, its not always easy to have those social ties that you actually needs,
just because you are sick and spends most of the day alone.I consider myself very lucky when it comes to friends, but I also know that I want to spend more time with them then my health allows me to. I feel so guilty every time I have to say no. I can see in their eyes that they get disappointed every time, even though they say its okay.
But I am lucky, because my friends don't go anywhere, they are with me through  the ups and downs.

So if you know of someone who is lonely, and we know that the holidays make people who are lonely even more so. Call them, or take them out for something to eat or a movie.
But not think that anyone else will do it, you be that person today who pick ups the telephone and call!

4 were are we going

Today i finally got an appointment to the Pain clinic on the 14 of December, and I am hoping with every bone in my body that they will find a way to make my pain less, so I can live a little more. I am starting to get tired of this couch. and I wanna decorate the house for Christmas, and eat without fear.

To have a disease that makes you scream by just swallowing food, liquids, and my own saliva. do I have to be scared to eat for the rest of my life? And I never know when the esophagus spasms are coming. sometimes I don't even have to eat anything.
what I would like is to talk to others that are in the same situation, and what has helped for them, or if they are in my position: maybe we could help each other. There has to be something out there that can help, but where? even if you don't have spasms but have found some coping techniques for living with chronic diseases?
Its not easy reading articles from different countries with Google translator... it's not always precise.