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Today my home nurse should have been here, but of course she was not. maybe the hospital has forgotten to call them. It wouldn't be a surprise.
I have been awake for 4 hours today. they have given me strong sleeping pills so i will sleep and can't complain about the pain. i don't understand them at all. Why not give me the medication that will keep me pain free and awake? So this is the good life they were talking about? the life that would do so i could live almost normal?. I am so sick of this “normal” term, there is nothing normal about being sick.