4 My weekend

Okay so have I been on a lot of pain killers the last month.. Truly sad that some doctors only think its mental pain. because I have done all of tests 4 times.. How many times do I have to do this tests to be belived.

 Anyway. I have had a busy weekend. On Friday I made Christmas cakes with my mother in law.
Well she made them and I talked.But I was totally tired and felt a slip when I got home.

 

On Saturday we went downtown Oslo and took care of the last Christmas shopping, yes I do not just think that my small surgery next week will go smoothly, no other surgery I have had have, so why should it now?

My sister Marthe met me and my boyfriend in Oslo, and came home with us, for some good food and conversation. She slept over and went to work.It was really good to see her again. She is almost 20 years old. Its so strange. It feels like yesterday that I was told I was going to be a big sister again.. Amazing how the time just fly by..

Today I went to a mall and got some nice clothing to wear on Christmas eve. Yes in Norway and in my family we eat ribs on Christmas eve, and for dessert we have cloud berry cream.. Its so good.

And again we do go around the Christmas tree singing Norwegian songs. This is one of the songs we sing, and the one I love the most:

We  do open the presents on Christmas eve. This year its going to be my parents, my boyfriend (we have been together for almost 6 years, so the same as married)haha, my sister Anette, and my grandparents. I am so lucky that I have only lost my grandfather on my mothers side. I am very lucky in that way.

So thanks to some painkillers I had a nice weekend for a change. When you are as sick as I am its nice to get a break, and for a little while I can feel normal, like everybody else..

So all over, the first good weekend  since mid October..

4 Desember!

December has always been my favorite month. I love snow, shopping presents, decorating, candles, Christmas trees and I love that even though all of (us) kids have grown up, we still go around the Christmas tree. and we still open one present at a time. Christmas eve is the one day a year you have all the time in the world. We would open presents all night long if that what it takes. One Christmas we used 6 hours, but we had a lot of fun during those six hours. and I love all the typical Norwegian foods and drinks we have this month.

It has always been the time of year where my boyfriend and I gather all of our friends and have a Christmas party with good food and a lot of aquavit. Sometimes we can even take a little walk on the lake, or just walk late at night while it's snowing. Some of us girls have taken the ferry to Denmark to party, and just being the girls. that was supposed to be last weekend and I cant really make any plans with my health. so maybe next year. and the Christmas party was going to be this weekend, but that will not happen until next year.

Oh well on too a totally different topic: The cold is the only thing I am not too happy about. But when you live in Norway, you get used to it or move. it's really not that a difficult decision. I have sometimes played with the idea of moving somewhere warmer, but my family and my friends mean too much to me.
If you are as lucky as I in both of those categories you'd stay right where you are too.

And isn't that what matters in life? A strong tied family, good friends, and for me: a good show on the TV, or a good book. and of course travel. learning new cultures, and meeting people at the place they are in there life, because we influence people all the time, and maybe most when we don't even think about it.

I have always had this philosophy, that every person that walks by me, I either smile to them or say hello and smile, because I don't know what that person goes through, and if my smile can make someone else smile one time that day, or maybe changes their state of mind, well I would like to think that I have made a difference at the end of my life.
You don't really have to be the president to change the world, it is the small things us "meaningless" people do that makes the world into good neighborhoods, and communities. because most of us can't see the whole world, its too big, so we just try to see what we can change in the area we spend most of our life in.

0 christmas shopping

Today my parents took me out for some shopping to get out of the house. I always get shocked by how many people I have to buy gifts for. but I am over halfway there. so that's a start.
A shopper as I am, I ended up buying new winter shoes for me. New indoors shoes, two tights, new sheets for the bed, and mittens. I can never shop for only what I set out to buy.. I think it is a disease, my brain looses all focus.
I have to make lists with who I am buying for, what I am getting them, and who remains, or I will buy several things to every person.

My brain doesn't work with this Lyrica pills. I walk like I am drunk even though my brain is clear, so high heeled shoes are a no, no. unless i wanna stay a night on a drunk cell, because i have no chance at walking on a straight line. So Lyrica makes you feel like an alcoholic. I hope that someday a drug comes on the market that could help me and others like me to have a normal life as possible, because to live like this it is the same as not living at all. I sleep all the time, I cant follow a conversation, I lie crying in pain, I can eat 2% of what exists on the marked, and all I want is to go to school, get my education, and start teaching. and also get back to the red cross and help those who need help. I want my life to have purpose again.