Tuesday, August 30, 2011

2 Lucky after 30????

Have you ever felt like you were destined to be clumsy,unfortunate, almost as if you were under the spell?
I have felt like that my entire life, if something happens it is to me. someone has stolen my credit card twice. I have had burglars in my condo on holiday, and all that he stole was 100 bucks, my phone, my purse(that I latter got back) and half a kit kat.. jum jum.

Thursday, August 25, 2011

0 Esophagus spasms speaks Alex language

I have been to my doctor today (pain clinic), and I am confused... The last 4 months have been about me taking morphine based supplements, and nothing about my real problem.
We did write a angry but fair letter last week, were we stated what we think needs to be done. My last gastro doctor has written to things in my medical journal that he did not want to treat me and said that my treatment was completed.. I thought what the f&/%k??? How can they say that? my spasms are just as real now as they were 12 months ago, or 24 for that matter.

Saturday, August 20, 2011

0 Moroccanoil

Last time as was with my hairstylist she gave me a sample of this amazing oil for the hair. Now it don't look frizzy and dead anymore. And the best of it is that I don't need hairspray and other products in my hair. this hold the style all day long, and it looks like my hair is perfect without products.

Monday, August 15, 2011

2 Help me live...

Tomorrow is my first day at school, and my first day after changing major.. I am so scared that i wont finish it, and come out on the other side alive and still have a spark in my eyes. I don't want to loose myself, and I feel I will do that if I don't finish my degree.
So if anyone out there reads this, send me you're love, you're courage, hope dreams, I will even accept a prayer if thats what it will take for me to keep living the life i dream of, the life i hope for, the life I fear will take me... please help me..

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

0 Memory video 22/7 attacks on our small but wonderful country (Its the people in this country that makes it great)

This is am amazing video in memory of all those who lost their life, someone they loved, or survived the massacre 22/7--11.. My hearth goes out too all of you, and 2 weeks doesn't make this go away. Life goes on, but it has changes us all forever!

Finse - 'Norges Symbol' (Finse - 'The Symbol of Norway') from Greg T @ Lanor Productions on Vimeo.

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

0 Faith???

What do we mean when we say : "to have faith?"
Is it to believe in something bigger than us selfs? Or is it to belive in our selfs?
We say that we cant proof that there is a God, Allah, Nirvana,Valhalla or any of the big religions? but those who say they can heal, talk talk to the dead they are frauds.
I am someone who has almost been to the other side, but I cant say that I saw a light, tunnel or deceased loved ones. All I saw was nothing, but it wasn't scary nothing, it was tranquility, peace for eternity..
I did read some wear that there was a study in this phenomenon, and those who saw a light had a slighter increased carbon dioxide in their blood.. There will always be those who will say that this was a proof of life after death.. But thats all that this is about.. Having faith!

Friday, August 5, 2011


I have always thought of myself as a loving, good hearted, caring and forgiving. But don't we all?
Who thinks that they are mad, evil, manipulating person??

Thursday, August 4, 2011

2 How am I going to live??

Why is it that when you are sick, you always have to prove that you are sick?
Why don't the doctors belive us when we say that something is wrong?
Who wants to be sick by choice? I have never met anyone who thinks that spending their life in pain in bed is a good life...
Isn't that what we all want?

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

0 Hold on

"When you're by yourself
And there's noone else
You just tell yourself to hold on
Hold on world, world hold on
It's gonna be alright"
(John Lennon)