1 Death before a feuneral..

My grandmother died last Friday.. thats why I have been awol just being there her last days.... Its hard to see someone you love die, but excruciation seeing them die of what I almost died from a few years ago. Its a cold reality I don't wish on anyone, knowing the pain, but seeing my grandmother say it doesn't hurt, when I know that is just to comfort us, because it is anything but painless...
No one knows what its like to die, and do you want to know? really??
I don't want to know, but cant get it out. Isn't that the truth? We only want to until we do, then we wished we didn't??

My grandmother is going to be buried tomorrow, me and my sister has put some words together, to her, for her. But she deserves it... She has had a hard life, and both her parents died when she was really young. It was only her and her brother for all this years. And for me he wasn't only her brother, he was like a uncle, and our families has been close, and living in the same neighborhood.

But yesterday, her brother was found dead in his home, alone.. how can siblings die a week apart? And he wasn't even sick.
I never thought you couldn't die from pain or heart ace, but I have become a believer. The irony is that my grandmother wanted to die like that, just fall asleep, no pain, but not alone! Death sucks anyway you put it.
They say that death never comes alone, and that 3 die together. But in my book, 1 is to many and 2 is unbearable, and 3 is a tragedy!

 To say that death is a part of life,is to comfort, it isn't anymore fun to see someone you have loved all you're life die, than someone young die. it is unfair anyway. you want just one more day, another hour to tell them that you love them, and not have to deal with them being gone.
My grandmother believed in god, and all I can think is that now they can be together again, as they always were in life. just the two of them..

"Now I lay you down to sleep
Pray the lord you're soul to keep
And if you die before I wake
Pray the lord you're soul to take"
Some people cant live without the other, so go be with grand mom, and tell her that I love her!