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Saturday, March 5, 2011

12 Cant breath..

Today is the day that I have realized that I have to live with esophagus spasms, and probably for the rest of my life.
And I cant breath. I never thought that I would be this scared, and this heartbroken.
I never thought it would last, I thought the doctors would come up with something amazing, like they always do in a Hollywood movie. Its insane, crazy, and the patient is most likely going to die, but the patient never do. In real life they never do come up with anything like that!
My life has been damage, and maybe lost, just because doctors did me wrong.
And when they realized it they tried to blame each other, instead of helping me.
When a person wants to be a doctor, is that to save life's, or to save them selfs?


12 comments:

  1. it's so sad that a doctor has destroyed your life, I hope that things will work out for you and that you will get a treatment that helps so you can get your life back. hug

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  2. I really feel with you and i hope you will get all the medical kompetation as you can, when you need it.
    What kind of help did you get?
    Love

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  3. thanks for the warm thoughts.
    They have over the last year tried Adalat,antidepressant, botox. But there are some promising drugs in the U.S, and myotomy surgery, and more expertise in the U.S, but my doctors don't seem all that keen on getting help from abroad, witch breaks my heart. Again I thought one became a doctor to help, and not just to care for on selfs ego.
    hugs Alex

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  4. Hello
    You schall write a letter to your doctor, tell about your ordinary days. Tell about the competance in USA and the medicin as you want to try.
    Tell about your dreams.
    Tell about what kind of help du you want from the medical system.
    When you write the coctor must write back to you.
    Love

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  5. I think that the doctor should give you medication or surgery so you can get your life back You just require and do not accept that they should not do anything about it
    it is your life.
    I like your blog alexsandra and stay strong:)

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  6. Hi
    I do not know if the link may be of some help but I hope everything works out soon for you.
    no one should have such pain that you and not help.

    http://www.uwhealth.org/surgery/heller-myotomy-for-achalasia/12613

    http://www.ehow.com/how_2056269_prepare-myotomy.html

    http://uwmedicine.washington.edu/Patient-Care/Our-Services/Medical-Services/Esophageal-Gastric-Diseases/Pages/ArticleView.aspx?subId=71

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  7. Hei Aleksandra. Tusen takk for din kommentar på bloggen min. Det er så rart, mens noen av oss eneste bekymring er om gardinene henger riktig på våre bloggbilder og vi bruker halve dagen på å dandere bord og stoler og Gud vet hva, før vi bruker resten av dagen til å knipse redigere å legge det ut på nett, så sliter andre med problemer som ødelegger SÅ mye for livene deres.
    Jeg har lest historien din og ord blir fattige.... "Bjørkly" bloggen min handler nesten bare om interiør. ( psst... For å komme gjennom NIB,s nåløye ) Men jeg har en annen blogg som har samme navn som din, bare på Norsk.

    http://fallmoen.blogspot.com/

    Der skriver jeg om litt mer enn bord og stoler.
    Ta gjerne en titt. Og igjen. Tusen takk for besøket. Og så håper jeg du får flest lyse dager.

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  8. Hei deg!
    Tusen takk for kommentar på bloggen min♥
    Har lest litt på bloggen din nå, og ser at du opplever masse som er vanskelig for andre å sette seg inn i!!
    Håper det hjelper deg litt å blogge for å få satt ord på ting!!
    Og håper du får flest av de gode dagene♥

    Lykke til!

    Klem Anita

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  9. Thank you so much for all the wonderful comments. I am thankful that people care. And sometimes the "perfect" life's of blogers and their interior is what we need to dream and fight to get our life's back :)
    I do try to push the doctors, but sometimes you are lost for words.
    And I will take a look at all the links.. And fight for sunnier skies!
    Alex

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  10. Hei Aleksandra.

    Takk for hilsen på bloggen min :) Jeg må bare si meg enig i at livet får et annet perspektiv når sykdom kommer inn i bildet! Og det er ikke lenger viktig hvilken sofa du har, farge på vegger eller hvilket mønster du samler på....
    Jeg håper du finner nytte og glede i blogging :)
    Det har jeg. Mye av grunnen til at jeg bruker så mye tid på blogging, er at jeg har gått/går gjennom en vanskelig tid psykisk. Så blogging har til tider vært min terapi :)
    Ønsker deg så mye lykke til videre i livet:)
    Klem Anita

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  11. Det har du helt rett i. Blogging blir terapi for min del og.
    Prøver man å skifte fokus litt, kan man faktisk klare å samle krefter til å kjempe for "livets rett" :)
    Psykiske problemer skal man aldri ta lett, glad at det begynner å bli mer forsåelse for at psyken er like viktig som fysisk god helse. det henger tross alt sammen :)
    klem

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  12. have you tried acupuncture?

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