3 Another one

 I am going into surgery next Thursday. It never ends..
I just hope that it goes well and that they don't have to open we up..
Yet again, its me we are talking about. I am so going to be open up...
This time I am not going to hope for the best, lets be real I am hallways to being neutered..
And that feels as unnatural for me as it is for dogs, and cats..
I am scared every time, and I always thinks in my head: What if this one goes wrong to, and I don't make it this time?
I did turn 30, but just barely..